Tuesday, November 17, 2009
it's finally over... kinda feel weird every time i get extra time with nothing to do. den i would unconsciously take a textbook, start to read it, then recall there's no need to study anymore. so free, so scary.
lots of play time. so much time but so little things to do. and we are stuck in this small place. just an afternoon out in orchard shopping and we met ellie, nichola, wang yee, isadora, charlene, beryl, and some sec 5s. amazing isnt it. i bet if u go vivo or smt, sure will meet other people too. our little red dot is just too small. by the age of 10, half of singapore u hv alrdy been to. by the age of 20, u would be going to repeated places.
i bit my tongue, its really painful and red and swollen. its also bleeding sometimes. i hv a habit of looking at it in the mirror. zeng xi says no matter how i look at it its still the same but i tink the more i look at it, the less swollen it is. its psychology. i tink i spell it wrongly.:O
my feeling today: grouchy
reason: my tongue is in pain
suggestion: bear with me
the reflection, is not me.
3:51 AM
Sunday, September 13, 2009
hehheh, long time since i blogged, not sure where to begin....
ok, ariela's birthday den. last monday. joan, rachel, zx n me are really bad surprisers (?). we got lost on our way to her house despite the few kind souls who tried to show us the way. arhh...we are just so dumb. anw, we finally made it to her house and it was kinda AWKWARD...since we dun really hv the partying mood with the exams and all, so her birthday party was kinda pathetic. :( sorry ariela, we will do a better one after Os!
oh no! joan jac, our birthday's gonna be like that TOOO!
kept crashing at cascada's house to study the whole week. there's free aircon, free drink, and no idiots fighting for seats with you. :D the best place to mug. too bad most of the time we were playing instead of studying, so >.< hehe....:P
friday went to bishan library to study with iris, jm, n cass. i did something productive (finally!) since i finished reading history textbook. but sheesh, when i tried testing myself, the results are like ____. so, that's not really studying, isit?
mugging for chem today, my textbook is seriously new and clean. and im feeling so guilty.
the reflection, is not me.
1:39 AM
Saturday, August 29, 2009
the king of pop aka michael jackson's concert is on tv now. just now there was this really emotional girl who overcome all challenges, (yep, she shoved the guards away really hard) and ran onto the stage and hug the KOP. he looked like he was really relax and all, even continueing with his song while the girl chokes and sob all over his neck. den my whole family was starring open mouth at the tv (i mean, do u see this often?) and my dad went "wow, his neck must really smell nice"
saw this cute couple on the bus today. the girl tried to pull the guy's hair. abit like trying to groom him, i tink. den the guy got irritated and shove her away. but the girl kept on coming, and continued to touch his hair. den the guy got pissed and pinched the girl, and the girl rebutted by grabbing him by the hair and hit it against the window. awww, isnt it sweet? young love of 6-year-olds. :)
off to day dream, or is it just dream?
the reflection, is not me.
5:57 AM
Friday, August 21, 2009
these were my first three words when i went for oral:
"GOO..."
"GO..."
"Gg..."
ok the third wasnt even a word. and ya, these was realy wad i said. i was trying to decide when was the best time to greet them. after i sat down? when i first entered? while im walking towards them? and it so DID not help that they were sitting way in and i had to walk a super long way. so my mouth was scrunched up preparing to say the words.
and she beat me by saying it first. "GOOD AFTERNOON!"
and i went an incoherent "...good morning..."
and i realised my mistake and hoped they werent paying any attention.
sigh.
anyway, its over! its over its over (singing voice), lalalalalala!" the tune is nanny nanny poo poo btw. me and leticia were so excited after cos it was the last oral we would ever have. :)
its getting nearer. everyone's asking everyone (o.O) do they feel pressured.
either answer is bad.
if u say yes, it shows u r very slack arh.
it u say no, it makes u look too confident.
so, what can i say?
the reflection, is not me.
5:56 AM
Friday, August 14, 2009
the house is in uncomfortable silence. and im in an awkward position.
the kid's off to camp. he was really excited the whole week, unpacking and packing again, rolling out the sleeping bag to "test-sleep" it. and tis morning he's gone, though its just one night, tonight feels really weird. dinner was silent, so silent that i left for my room after. thinking back, this is the first time im alone with my parents. having being brought up by my ah ma, im not really close with them. finally, i realised im so quiet with them. thank goodness for the kid who fills in the void, but now he's gone and the tension's high.
when he's off to the army, hopefully im out of the house alrdy. cant stand one night like this, let alone months. should i go break the ice? >.< but its just weird cos there isnt really any constructive thing to say. pfft, forget it.
im off to bed real early to escape reality.
the reflection, is not me.
5:08 AM
Monday, August 10, 2009
something's seems to be not quite right for this year's ndp. maybe cos im not there at the parade, the celebration just seems so ... none of my business. dun really feel the excitement that i had anticipated, and the holidays just seem like any other holidays. does growing up make u lose ur past excitements?
slacked all day thru. despite noeing its test thru the week, cant bring myself to get onto the table and mug. :/ ahhh, hell, its ss tmr and i hvnt even started. really should tie myself away from my temptations, not that it helps since my brain just wanders in my happy place.
im closing one eye.
im pretending i dunno.
but when will it end?
the reflection, is not me.
2:06 AM
Friday, August 7, 2009
ndp celebration today. wore the colours and got lots of stares from my "bus-pals". the auntie and uncle stare so openly and it kinda makes you feel weird. den i started getting nervous cos i kept tinking i got the day wrong. finally i saw smone i noe who was wearing and went PHEW.
sang songs all the way. woooh, great celebration. just lots and lots of singing. -_- i tink performances would be more interesting, but when everyone sang familiar songs like "home" together, the effect was kinda nice. :) actually, it was VERY nice, since we seldom sing together as one. :) but the mass singing in the parade ground was quite bad, considering the haze and the heat and the sun. it was pure torture. sweat the size of swimming pools! ok, maybe just the baby pool, not so much cos its shallow.
den went to macs with ariela and while waiting for zx and hl. cos we had so much time, we played the "have u seen tis movie?" game, where each of us name a movie and if u had watched it b4, u get to eat one mouthful of ur food. ya, anw, our game was super pathetic cos it only wasted about half-an hour of our time? tsktsk, we are so boring people.
went ION after that and cos it was quite a boring place, came my house to play. played bridge and the workout thingy thingy at my void deck. took funny pics of us jumping in mid air. :) had lots of fun. OHOHOH! got very VERY very excited when we went to the toilet in ION and found their auto soap!!! and their toilet was super cool, had lots of mirrors and there was two lady in there who seemed to be the toilet attendant. got the feeling of VIP when u use the toilet, half expecting them to go " here's a towel, m'am." or "can i get you anything?" LOL ^.^
cold war on. its he versus she. we are switzerland.
the reflection, is not me.
5:07 AM